theeuphoria:

(by m.corkill)

In this season, life has been about making major decisions. 
It is really a thorough process, mentally, emotionally and yea, practically.
I have them in my hands, and it is all about identifying and being able to pick up the right hints - which path should I take?

I see everything before me but my mind is just in a whirl. I understand the anxiety but I am me. I totally understand, but I am sensitive and emotional. I need to be pushed sometimes and I’m glad that it happened but I don’t know why i feel emotional about it. 

The past few days was challenging. I have been trying. But unconsciously there will naturally and definitely be some comparison. I know we’re different and we have our own positive sides. I really look up and admire that aspect of him and i am learning. I know there isn’t any harm behind everything that is happening, and it is just another phase in life you’re walking through with me. I’m sorry for being a disappointment at times but I am trying to improve as time goes by. 

But right now, I guess I just have to let my guards down, and just proceed with life because it ain’t gonna help if i keep worrying about all the “what-ifs”. Since this is the best option, i guess i’ll just leave it all up to God to determine my outcome. 

I need courage to face this new phase. It is not just one aspect, but a few. I can’t do this alone. 

But I know at the end of the day, my destiny is in Your hands. 
Faith, is the key.